Love Despair.

I love you. I should have been said it. It’s been so hard. I always have. I never stopped. But somehow you learned how to. Or if you even did. You see, when your heart and mind doesn’t agree on one thing. It becomes a constant battle. Now I have learned, just like you have. But it doesn’t help when it just keep the wonder in your heart. My wonder is you. I wonder if a song comes on, do I come to mind.

I just want to be part of your life. More than it seems. I understand. It hurts to see how life has become because of the fear of love. It keeps you from living life. I have been afraid all my life. I even destroy relationships that meant so much. I realized its all part of growing up. So here I am, laying all my cards my cards on the table. Out of everything, you’re the one that hurt the most. I loved you with all my heart. It was so difficult. I just couldn’t be that vulnerable. You see, there was a day that you broke my heart which I never even got back together till this day. But I forgive. I chose to still love you.

I wish I had the courage to say what I always wanted to say. It’s just too late now. There is too much on the line. I love my life now. I love everything about it. I guess what I’m trying to say. Wonder? Is not so bad I mean, yeah my heart’s desire is you. I wouldn’t be able to take it if I wasn’t yours. So ill leave it the way it is. I’ll continue to watch from a distance or hear through the grapevine. Just wanted to let you know.

I love you. That’s all there is to it.