Light.

I know. But that's not the point. Lately I haven't been me. Like I been so withdrawn. From the world. I use to love to go to manhattan for nothing or go with one my best friends an act fool on the train or in the city. Now I don't even wanna be bother by anyone. I just wanna be left alone. An I'm not going to lie its be little...

That's what I would have wrote... They seem to never understand. They offer so much understanding that you think yeah they know. But then that split second of doubt takes over. Your right back where you started. Thinking..

Then and now?! So much has changed. Maybe for the better or some for the worst. I think I dealt with worst. They say "it get better in time" or "time heal all wounds". But what happens when time runs out?! Then there those regrets an what ifs that drive you insane. But if you think back when the worst was happening. Would you see yourself as the person you are?! Or the one you wanna become?! But who says its certain. Or if even sure.

I know who I use to be. An I miss that use to be so much, that I'm truly scared of the future. The present doesn't seem to offer so much an I don't speak of my problems but the worlds.

So as I wrote before. I'm not me. I haven't been in a long time. But they are right.. It does get better.. An time heals all wounds. But I do agree.

Sometimes "I'm not going to lie...," it's an little...

Lonely.