Scales Of A Dragon.

And you thought dragons didn't exist...

I did too. You see when you tell people they may think you're crazy or have a wild imagination. To the normal eye, It's true. However...

There are dragons. They just live among us. They all have different figures, scales, even talent. They come off as charming, trusting and caring as they can be but they are not. They don't even care.

No one wants you to even be better or do better. Why? Because it makes others doubt themselves and it when their real nature shows. You have become a problem. There is old saying when bad things happen. Many say "The devil just knocking on my door or dancing on my grave." As I see the world now, I rather let the devil in. I understand the chaos and mayhem he brings. It is expected.

However, this devil is nothing compare to it these dragons. The inhabit your life. Become every part of it. They become the trusted, the loved and the future.

So you thought dragons didn't exist... But there are all types of demons or devils,

But don't worry. You see, I did too..

What Do You See..

There is a guy sitting on a park bench reading a newspaper. There is birds singing, children playing and people jogging pass.

No one notice the man, while the world continues, no one noticed. No noticed the man. The hat he wears is brown with a black trim with a red feather on the side. No one noticed. The grey hair stuffed and over grown underneath, No one noticed. His face is serious and doesn't have many wrinkles. But his eyes...

They are so deep brown with the darkest circles around them. It shows that he has not slept properly in days, months or even years. His suit is brown and had black, brown and grey patches to cover the moth holes. His arms are too long and his legs stopped the pants way above his ankles. Down to the black sock, which are probably the last ever clean pair with the least holes.

Then his shoes, there were brown. But now grey with wear and tear of years of before. Seen roads the we bear not to cross. Seen fights we dare not to break. But no one noticed this guy. As the date on the newspaper changes, his appearance has not.

You know this guy. Everyone knows this guy.... Its Love.... After it has endure being taken of granted, beaten down, abused, used, thrown away, etc.

But...
 No one noticed. So there is just a guy sitting on a park bench reading a newspaper....

Tear Stained...

Hey,

Did you know that tears stains clothes? Really? Me either...

But how would you know when your face is already permanently tear-stained. Yeah, I see it, when no one does. I see through the practice painted smile. I bet you make sure you practice that smile every day. You can let no one see you slip up. But don't worry sweetheart... You have everyone fooled.

No one knows the belittlement you feel about yourself everyday. No one knows the bullies you handled within yourself. You may keep your head high and rise in the public, but what about behind closed doors? You see, no one seems to understand your suffering and pain. All you keep hearing is "You're too young" or "you have your whole life ahead of you." 

But I feel your wrong. Yeah, I may be young but I live in a era of the people my age is in fear that tomorrow may never come. In the past year, I have lost people too many. Either if they are dead or alive. Things are not getting better nor they are getting worst. For many, it goes either way. But... YOU ARE STUCK. 

Keep believing the words of wisdom from the people that don't have a clue. People who live thinking everything that glitter is gold. Nothing can make you feel better expect you... But how? what can I do? 

Because in the end.. All I am is..

just stuck... in sadness... all tear-stained..

Let's play with trouble

Most woman would choose  security over love. And what's meant by that is, a lot of women believe that the security would give them a sense of home. Knowing things are going to taken care of is all some need. Even some believe that love wouldn't last forever or it's just painful. All of that is true, but have you experience a love that is unexplainable? The attraction is just simply amazing.

There is such a unexplainable pull. Like everything around you is just happy, nothing else matters. Your eyes meet and your stomach tightens. Your heart starts racing while your try to fight the smile. You look away, not because you wanted to because it was so overwhelming. You begin to think, how can someone just look at me and cause this reaction? But there more then you realize. 

You in love. You never experience this. It doesn't happen. But yet it does, it gives you an whole different outlook on life. Then you come back to reality, you realize now your face to face. You beginning to notice how older they look, the difference in their eyes, and how the tone of their voice isn't the same either. They begin to speak as the words turn into the stories; you notice that those stories are experience they have overcome and yet to deal with. You see they have seen the harsh of life. You know the harsh of life, you live it, so you understand. It hurts to see that. But you care more then you realize.

As the conversation begins to get deeper, you start to become different. You feel more open but you spent all this time fighting, never had the chance to really feel it. You hear your name, then your eyes meet. There an shock through your body. What is that? What's happening? Now all you wanna do it hold them and never let go, but you contain yourself. Your so lost in your thoughts, that now their face is inches away from yours. Now, is this really true? Is this really happening? The moment you dreamed about since the beginning of time, is actually happening before your eyes. Your lips touch.

Feels like an explosion. Everything just melts away. Everything you was worry, sad, or upset doesn't matter. The world is kind again. But yet you pull away. It's too much. You believe you can't. They pull you back, you give in. They rub the hand across you hand, feels so warm. You step back, trying to regain your thoughts. They begin to speak, feelings are mutual. You just look at them, and all you see is pure and utter adoration and love. You know that look, you seen it many times but from him...

 it's different....

Just a story

 It was a dark and rainy night. The fog was a thick and the air was filled with gloom. The two lovers stood anxiously on the train platform. Their eyes were filled with fear. They embraced tightly and kissed passionately for what they thought was the last time. Then they said their final goodbyes but...

 

 April held him tighter, not wanting to let him go. Then Marcel looks at her and realizesthe tears in her eyes and it breaks his heart. He doesn’t want this to be goodbye either. He embraces her face, wiping her tears away. She was starting looking sad. He lifted her face to his and said “Your make sad look so beautiful.” She begins to smile. April knows she would have to say goodbye and doesn’t want to face it. She loves Marcel more then he would know. April begins to tell him but the words don’t come out. He just looks at her and gives her a smile, understanding her feelings. April finally begins to talk, “what do we do now? Why would this have to end?” She stares at him while his face doesn’t change. Still smiling, Marcel says to her “love, this isn’t the end. It’s a beginning. It is a beginning of a new adventure. It’s a beginning to a new life, an even better… no a great one.” April still stares at him, looking so sad. Marcel continues to talk, “I understand you don’t understand or even that you’re feeling heartbroken. But a love like ours will last. It will never be forgotten.” April’s eyes begin to tear, “It just…. I will miss you so much. We are going to be so far apart.”  He smiles again, “love, which is not true because you’re forever in my heart. That’s the closest we will ever be.”

As the train begins to pull into the station, April begins to hug him tighter; not wanting to let him go once again. As the train comes to a screeching stop, she looks into his eyes “I didn’t come to England to find love. I came for adventure and I got more then I bargain for. I came with the curiosity in my heart to learn new things, meet new people, but now I’m leaving with sadness. More sadness that I believe I can carry.” The train conductor yells “All Aboard.” April being to cry as Marcel holds her tighter. They look passionately into each other eyes. He begins to speak, “My darling, I to will miss you terribly. But your life isn’t here, its back in the states. You have your school and your job. Everything is settled for you. If destiny is in our favor, we shall meet again. I’m counting on it.” He ends with a smile. The train conductor yells “last call.” April knows if she does not get on this train, she may never will.

As they still staring into either other eyes, Marcel lends in give April a kiss for the last time passionately. Then Marcel whispers to her “you must get on this train before I happen to never let you go.” As they begin to let each other go, Marcel fighting the tears, April begins to gather her belongings. As he watches her walk to the door of the train, he can’t help to think, “She is so graceful, and beautiful. Our love for this short period of time has changed my life. I believe I would never see her again.” April looks back, and he waves; letting her know everything will be just fine. April boards the train. As she reaches her seat by the window, she just looks out at him. She begins to think “look how beautiful and wonderful he is. This may have given me heartbreak but without it, I wouldn’t be able to face my adventures in life. I know we may not even meet again. But every last minute was wonderful.” As the train starts to pull off, she presses her hand against the window. Marcel begins to wave goodbye. They both watched either other until the fog had given them both no sight left of each other. Both left aneverlasting love behind with a broken heart...  They will never know what the future may have held. But maybe destiny will let them meet again.

To my uncle Greg and Erik 💔

God called you home

So you had to departed

But the sorrow we feel

Will never be apart

Sometimes I just don't understand

Gods plan

I'll miss you

With every breath I take

Every tear that falls

Feel like a earthquake

But I know time always end

Even though the hands on the clock

Goes around and around again

So don't worry about me

Ill be sad but fine

Just spread your wings

So the sun shines

I know you're watching from above

So please just keep

Sending me blessings and love

💔

Difference.

This made me feel like I can make an difference in the world. Even if it just with one person.

But that all it takes.

SO here my difference, I wanna share with the world.

"Hey,
I know I haven't been the best friend to you, it's funny how I always try to work on that and somehow find myself back to "I haven't been the best friend" -- I try.. It's hard giving yourself and your time to someone when other things take your time and yourself away from you.. Things you don't even agree with, things you don't like, things that if it was up to you, wouldn't even be.. Next to my mother, sister, my blood - you are the most important person to me. I know I don't show it all the time but I find comfort in knowing that you know me, and you know why, this is why I fuck with you lol. I fuck with you for a lot of reasons..
I fuck with you because whether it hurts you or the person your talking to, you speak the truth.
I fuck with you because no matter how many times I tried to find "you" in other person and neglected your time until they turned fake and left, you stayed real.. and stayed.
I fuck with you because every piece of advice you have ever given me, whether I followed it or not, was 100% correct.
I fuck with you because you encourage me instead of judging me.
I fuck with you because you held me down anytime I got into a situation like now.
I fuck with you for more reasons than my lazy ass can be bothered to write, so it stops here.
It's only 45 days, but life has thought us that one minute is more than enough time for the best and worst of any situation to happen, and theres a whole lot of minutes in 45 days, 64,800 to be exact. So I just wanted to let you know I really do appreciate you, love you, and care about you. I don't know what type of day you will be having by the time you read this, but I hope it's a good one -- better than mine, lol. And even if it's a shitty day, just remember you can choose to keep that shitty diaper on your ass and all the shit inside of it -- all day (THATS NASTY!), or you can take it off clean all the shit up (with a lil sprinke of baby powder) and finish your day CLEAN.
You can't change SHIT. You flush it down the toilet, it's just a flushed piece of shit. Wipe it on tissue, and it's a shitty piece of tissue. Bury it and it's a funeral, but it will always be SHIT. You can't change it, you can only keep it away from you and that's exactly what you need to do with every piece of shit you come in contact with -- flush it, wipe it away or bury it and don't look back -- because that shit is NOT going to change. Sometimes good people that love you and care about you will leave their shit with you instead of flushing, wiping, or burying it.. like babies, not because they want to but because they don't know any better.. When this happens you have to decide if you are ready to raise a baby ontop of everything else you have going on in your life -- or if you ready to put that mother fucker up for adoption and let someone else deal with it's SHIT!
Love"